What would you expect me to deal with?

Here is a short list of what I am expected to deal with, if I want to salvage my relationship with ms.mayhem. I will deal with this, my relationship with my kids' mom is what I want, more than anything in the world.

She left me, dead cold, out of the blue. She used me not trusting her as a reason. Fine, except she has told me as many lies as truths over the last 14 years. The most recent being the night before she asked for the divorce. Trust is hard to earn, and easy to lose. Her lie the night before involved a 30 minute phone conversation, and 49 text messages from 11pm till 4:30 am. "He was just trying to help though," I don't know how to show sarcasm in type, but the last sentence is meant to be very sarcastic.

She left my kids. Sometimes I had them six days a week, I was happy to take them, but still very unfair to them. You wanna fight? Come get me, anytime, anywhere. You wanna die? Hurt my kids in any way.

She quit her job, and gave up all financial responsibility. I filled in, with less than half the salary, I still managed to pay the bills, mine, hers, and ours.

She broke every promise she ever made. This is a small one, but still something I have to deal with. When she left me, she had nowhere else to go, so we shared my house. Every other day we stayed here. The only rule we agreed on was that there would be nobody in the house except family. Ky had a soccer tournament in Gillette, WY one weekend; of course Ms. Wasn't taking her, she wasn't even going to go, even though it was her weekend with the kids. I took all three of my kids, I would have gone anyway, but since she wasn't going, they rode with me. There was a concert here that weekend, in fact, I had tickets to. I had purchased these tickets months in advance, planning to go with my wife. I got home Sunday afternoon, and noticed a garbage can full of beer bottles, I called her, asked about them, and she told me that she had some people over before the concert. I asked who? She told me, it was two guys.

Sometimes she is lonely. She has told me that she has spent several nights in bed with different guys. Sometimes she stays at their house, sometimes they stay at hers. They never take their clothes off or anything, (sure) it's just nice to have someone in bed with you.

Many, many times she has posted blogs to her site talking shit about me?

She has called and talked to most of her ex-boyfriends, including the creme de' la' creme; piece of shit! She did this because she can.

She had sex with another guy, this is ok though, it was just sex. I do not say this on a feeling or a hunch, this is something that she told me. Great guy too, meth head, and two time ex-convict.

This is fair, I expect the same from her. Since she left me, since she told me over 100 times that she wasn't ever coming home, that I should move on, I have done many things that require her acceptance too. Here is the list.

I kissed a girl.






Yep, that's the end of the list.

Sorry to disappoint, but There's nothing else. Fair huh?


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